Monthly Archives: April 2012

I’m not Afraid to Die Because I’m Already Dead

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No, I can’t take credit for the great title of my blog today. It is from the venerable Deepak Chopra during an interview with Oprah on today’s episode of Super Soul Sunday. I’ve heard this thought uttered before but today it finally struck a chord deep down inside of me. When I was little, I always looked at the future as a fixed point in time. I can remember realizing when my mom was in her early 30s (where I find myself now) and thinking, that’s it. That’s what being a grownup is. You’ve got your job, you pay your bills, you’ve had your kids, you’re married. This is what you’ll be now until you die. You’ll never move from that place you find yourself. You’ve become all you will ever become. Thank God, I grew out of that thought.

Now as I’m the woman I thought I’d become and stay forever, my ideas are vastly different. I realize that life isn’t static, it’s always changing and moving. From the title above, the point Deepak was making which I’ve gotten so clearly now, is that the children we all were years ago are, in fact, dead. The person we were in our teens is dead. And for however long you’ve been on this planet, whoever you were yesterday, in the last 15 minutes and the in the last 15 seconds is DEAD. Our cells die out every few days and regenerate. You’re not the same person no matter how you slice it, physically, mentally or spiritually. We are in a constant state of evolution because that’s what we’re built for.

So I’m not 100% percent on the unafraid to die part just yet, I feel I’ve got plenty of things left to do in this life but I do get the idea that my physical death won’t be the end of me. It will simply be a progression into my next incarnation. I’ll shed the physical body but I’ll step into the next form, whatever that may be and I have a deep sense that it will be as natural as all of my other progressions have been. I can’t say it was a painful or difficult experience to go from ages 1-5 or ages 16-21, they just happened. Now, I’m trying to just be more aware of that fact and go with the flow. We can’t stop it even if we wanted to folks, so why not enjoy the journey? Namaste and God bless on this beautiful Sunday :)

The Axis of Awesome

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On this wonderful Wednesday, I searched for something funny and entertaining but still a tie-in for writing and I think this video is just that. As I read the other day on a very informative blog, one of the myths every writer should confront is that their book is a wholly and totally original idea. As has been said many times before, There’s nothing new under the sun and this definitely applies to writing. It took me a few days to fully absorb that fact as I was perhaps feeling like I really had come up with a pretty unique concept (don’t get me wrong, I still think my book is pretty darn good), just maybe not the first and only time someone had a thought similar to it. But my voice, plot and characters do make my book different and hopefully a very enjoyable read.

The video below is from an Australian comedy band (like an Australian Tenacious D) and it illustrates how almost every popular song from pop to rock in the past 30 years has been written using the same four chords. So although the base for each song is the same, it’s the way those chords are arranged, what lyrics are written for them and who sings those lyrics that make each song its own special piece of art. So, if you’re feeling a little like I was once it sunk in I hadn’t had the first original thought in a gajillion years and that maybe your book won’t have a shot because of it, watch the video below and realize that as long as you put YOU in your work, it will be wonderfully distinct! (Also if you just want to hear A LOT of popular songs and need a laugh, feel free to watch the video too!)

Exuberance

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So today’s deep thought is that of exuberance! My daughter woke us up at the inexcusably early hour of 6:30 am this morning and was raring to go. She’s six years old, so that explains a lot but she also just has a joy for life. After some breakfast and grumbling by her father and me, she begged for us to put some tunes on so that she could dance. It’s now just 8:30 am and I’m still trying to rouse myself but nonetheless we turned on some music so she could let loose. I took the above video of her after about three or four songs of hardcore dancing. It was at that point I realized we could all take a lesson from the children in our lives. They live in the moment. They are fully present. All of this stuff I listen to Oprah (whom I adore) preach about being in the here and now and letting go of the past and knowing the future can’t be worried about is fully expressed in the freestyle jubilation of a 6-year-old.

So, I submit to you this video of my daughter dancing her heart out to the song “Wild Ones” (which is so fitting for her) and I hope this Sunday is full of exuberance for you too!

 

Book Titles You’ll Never See

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1. It’s Not You, It’s My Butt

2. Foghorn Leghorn: I Say, I Say Read My Book

3. Fifty Shades of Pigeon Poop

4. The Last of the Mojitos

5. Around the Corner in 80 Days – An Elderly Gentleman’s Trip to the Supermarket

6. The Cask of Armadillo

7. A Christmas Carole: A Woman and Her Obsession with Wrapping Paper

8. Nicholas Nickelback

9. Apples and Oranges, Will the War Ever End?

10. For Whom the Ball Rolls

Just something silly for today. Feel free to add some of your own titles that you think will never see the light of day (or at least we hope so) in the comments below. And vote for your favorite from the list above. It’s Saturday – let your hair down and be goofy, it’s good for your health.

Left-brained but creatively minded?

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Statue that stands in Larimer Square, aka Writer Square, in downtown Denver, CO 

So, I’m a decidedly left-brained individual. Perfectionist in school – check. Needlessly planning and organizing menial tasks – check. Totally and wholly lacking any creativity – check?

This entry is as much for me as it is for my readers. Because I grew up a right-handed, left-brained logical person, I viewed creativity as something hippies did. Don’t get me wrong, I admired and still admire all of the wonderful things that artists, actors and writers have contributed to the world. In fact, I may have even been jealous of them. Sure I could organize a school rally or run a student council meeting seamlessly, but could I draw a stick figure in Ms. Powell’s art class? Not if my life depended on it – at least that’s what I thought. Well, actually that is the truth. I always argued with her because she hated to hear me say, “I can’t do this,” but dammit sometimes you just can’t. I’m sure all of us would love to have the talents of Leonardo Da Vinci or Michelangelo, but we’re just not that gifted, no matter how much encouragement you receive.

But because I couldn’t express myself through the visual arts (i.e. sculpting, drawing, painting – basically anything that involved my mind and hands interacting in a successful enterprise), I completely shut myself down to the notion that I was “creative”. I’d always done well in my English classes, but let’s be honest, English class in high school is basically learning the structures of a good essay and doing book reviews. I knew of great literature and how to take apart plots, themes and character development, but for me, this wasn’t being creative.

It actually wasn’t until I took a Creative Writing course in college that I started to believe I could be *gasp* creative. I later found out I didn’t even have to take that class in order to secure my degree, and now looking back it seems pretty fortuitous. I was able to be critiqued by my fellow classmates and give them my input on their work. We delved into everything from poetry to heart-wrenching memories and I found the experience exhilarating. Never before had I thought, me, a self-described anal-retentive, just-the-facts kind of person, could be creative. I’m so, so thankful for that class today.

And I say all of that, to say this – don’t let your dominant brain functioning define your life. Maybe others have already realized this fact and for those I say, Bravo! You caught the train way earlier than I did. But for those others that are struggling with the fact that they feel inklings of creativity and just don’t think they can find an outlet for expression because they too are left-brained and so, creatively-impaired, know that you can find your right-brainedness! Don’t fall into a trap of being made to believe it’s an either/or life out there because I’ve realized through my own experiences (and my husband’s helpful reminders) that life isn’t this or that, it can be this and that! So today I send freedom your way, go be free and as my fairy godmother, Madonna, would say – Express Yourself!

Appreciation

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So, it’s Sunday and the day has been relaxing and peaceful. Colorado finally saw a little rain and a little snow and it helped the dry, dry earth. The picture below was from a week ago while I was poolside and within a week’s time it’s rained, snowed and hit record highs for this time of year. I was warned before moving here that it’s just “Colorado weather” – it changes on a dime and that’s kind of what I love about it. Every day is a picture. For those of you who may not believe there’s an intelligence behind the design of the world, boy did we luck out with one hell of a coincidence then, because for all the right pieces to fall into place at just the right moment to create such exquisite beauty, if not divinely arranged, feels pretty magical to me.

What is the deep thought for today then? I guess it’s simply this – appreciate the world around you. Appreciate the small things, the big things, the things that irritate you and delight you. Time on this planet is so precious and so limited and none of us know when our time will be up. I’ve suffered many losses in my life at a very early age and so I think I’ve always been very connected to realizing just how special life is. Tell those you care for you love them and forgive those you don’t and just try to be present in the moment of life. The past is behind us, the future before and what is happening in the present is always a gift, whether you can see it now or not. Have a wonderful Sunday and I wish you all the best for the week ahead. Take Monday on with a smile :)

The Bipolar Mania that is Query Letter Submission

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So, on Monday I got a request for my full manuscript and the euphoria could not have been greater. I thought I needed to vomit, dance, pee and repeat. I didn’t want to eat because I was just too excited for food (great weight loss idea btw). I celebrated with my husband who was working from home that day and while I couldn’t eat, he was more than happy to make up for both of us (it’s what makes him happy people!). It was a great day and I was appropriately excited and hopeful about what it would bring.

Now it’s Thursday and I’ve gotten about 4-6 rejections since then. No partial requests, certainly no fulls. Not even, “Hey, keep your head up champ. We know you’re great but we’re just too busy at this time to take on your obviously fabulous book.” But such is life. Certainly the life of an aspiring published author because I can now with great assurance call myself a writer, just not a published one yet.

These emotional highs and lows of Himalyan proportions are to be expected. I spent months and months researching the submission process and so, intellectually, I know all of this is to be expected. But some days you just need to take a break, take a breather and regroup. I plan to take time this weekend with my family and get ready to face a new week all over again come Monday.

All this said, I wouldn’t change it for anything. I may have realized much later than I wanted what I really wanted to do with my life, but at least I did before it was too late. Btw, I’m not 102 and just now discovering my writer skills. I’m only in my early 30s, but with today’s youth-obsessed culture, it can feel like 102.

Anywho, in closing and summary and conclusion, it’s been a productive week, an emotional week and thankfully it’s almost near its end.

Got my first full manuscript request!

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Within 3 minutes (literally 3 minutes) of submitting my query letter today to one of my dream agencies (if not the dream agency), I got a request for my full manuscript.  I was beyond overjoyed but played it cool and was very demure when responding and sending my attached ms.  Today came after taking this past weekend scrutinizing my query letter for every little issue and to get a response to it so quickly blew my mind.  I’m so thankful for today’s triumph and I take nothing for granted and know that the next step is not guaranteed but I did want to share today’s little hooray.  This blog will help me document my journey to publishing.  Today’s word of the day – HOORAY!!!!!